Wow, it has been a looong time since I've posted anything on my blog. So long in fact that everything is different. lol It is going tot take me a while to figure it all out again.
My life has undergone a LOT of changes during the last year. I figured I would go ahead and share what's going on in my life, and try to get back to somewhat of a normal life. I really miss blogging, reading all of your blogs, and I really miss doing reviews.
Last Thanksgiving, one week before my 15th wedding anniversary, I found out that my husband was having an affair and wanted a divorce. Now, a lot of you know this already, but I figured I'd just get it out there so everyone would understand where I am coming from in my future posts.
Obviously I was heartbroken. I NEVER saw this coming. I would have bet my life that my husband would never do such a thing. I still don't understand it, honestly. I really did try to be a good, godly wife, but someone else came along that gave him more attention. That's all it took.
I still can't believe that a professed Christian man would destroy his family over a little attention. Now my children have to suffer the consequences. That is the worst part for me. He has always told our children that they would never have to worry about us getting a divorce because we didn't believe in divorce, and that it was against the Bible. And now, I am officially a divorced woman. It's been 3 months since our divorce was final.
Honestly, my husband has always been kind of an ass. He is a very controlling, manipulate man, but I loved him and thought if I could just keep trying to be a better wife, things would change. I tried to follow 1st Peter 3
Likewise, ye wives, be
in subjection to your own husbands; that, if any obey not the word,
they also may without the word be won by the conversation of the wives; While they behold your chaste conversation coupled with fear. Whose adorning let it not be that outward adorning of plaiting the hair, and of wearing of gold, or of putting on of apparel; But let it be the hidden man of the heart, in that which is not corruptible, even the ornament of a meek and quiet spirit, which is in the sight of God of great price. For
after this manner in the old time the holy women also, who trusted in
God, adorned themselves, being in subjection unto their own husbands: Even
as Sara obeyed Abraham, calling him lord: whose daughters ye are, as
long as ye do well, and are not afraid with any amazement.
But, I have realized that you can't control another person and their choices. You can only do the best that you can.
I have a lot to write, but I am going to try to break it into smaller posts, so it isn't too much to read at once.
I have really missed all of you, and am looking forward to getting back to some of my old self. Still trying to figure out who my new self is.
Homeschooling is definitely going to be different now, but I am still planning on homeschooling my children. I am going to have to work though, and that is going to be tough, but I know I can do it.
Well, I'll stop for now, but I will be posting and writing about my life, and hope to find some of my old self again. It feels good to be back here though. Talk to you all soon.